It's Sunita here,
I was in Columbus Ohio last weekend to attend a Sleep Medicine course at the Metz Center. I had been looking forward to this opportunity for the past few months, to not only learn and share, but to get to meet other sleep professionals. I had planned to be there a day before the course started, so I could explore the city and give myself some time to do nothing but think and feel without the interruption of the daily demands of my life. Sounds pretty good, doesn't it.
Well, Thursday didn't go the way I had planned. Let me explain.
Fridays are the days I post my blog www.selfloveselfcarefirst.com. That usually means that I dedicate time on Thursdays to write it and then share it the next day. I chose Friday because it was suggested as a day when blogs get read most (don't ask me about where these algorithms come from and how). I figured, I don't see patients on most Fridays so this will work perfectly.
But the reality is that I am usually scheduled to do non patient related things at work and find it very difficult to carve out the time that I need to write. And because of that, when I have been sitting down to write, it had begun to feel more like an obligation, than a passion to share and help others.
I had downplayed this unease and even went so far as to be self critical. My inner voice had the audacity to tell me "If you had used your time better during the week, you would not have this mad, last minute panic."
So Thursday in Columbus was spent in my hotel room, frantically writing and posting, instead of exploring the city and chilling.
It's at that point that I decided to STOP DECEIVING MYSELF and look at the reality of my situation.
Friday was not working out as the best day for me to post my blog. Something had to change.
An act of love and sharing became an event of stress and distress for me. The total opposite of Self Love Self Care First. I did not want to admit that, even to myself. And admitting it here took a lot of courage. But I hope it illuminates the point I'm making this week.
The perils of lying to ourselves lead us to harm.
When we don't pay attention to how we feel, we derail our commitment to live honestly and free.
Self Love Self Care First demands absolute honesty from us.
We feel bad when we aren't because it is a betrayal of ourselves, and in that we lose our essence, agency and authenticity.
That essence and agency is our power.
To fuel it we must practice Self Love Self Care First.
Looking at what causes us distress requires us to be flexible and ready to change our beliefs, convictions and mind about things.
It's okay to give ourselves the permission to do so.
Fluidity is health.
It is protective of us and guides us to take care of ourselves in ways that we can be our best and give our best.
So from now on, I look forward to visit you at www:selfloveselfcarefirst.com on Sundays.
I hope you will reflect on any thing that you want to do differently so you may enjoy and relish the experience as well.
Wishing you a week of flexibility,
Be well Do well Live well,
Photo Credit- Nina Singh Carlsen, The Dovre National Park in Norway