It's Sunita here.
In my stillness, when I have been one with the Divine, I have learnt that it does not play anything, but a long game. How long? Infinity, or simply put, so long that I can’t comprehend it. So, in order to stay close to the Divine, and experience it’s ecstasy as much, and as often, as I possibly can, I have had to learn it’s ways. The number one lesson about the Divine, and interestingly enough, what has resulted in minimizing my suffering, has been the necessity of facing reality.
I have learnt to face reality. Often, I don't like to. But I have learnt that I am not owed what I think I want, but am given what the Divine knows I need.
Instead of staying in a place or condition of wailing, lamenting, protesting, denying, being appalled, offended, enraged, insulted, mortified, lessened, broken down, ambushed, weakened, etc.,(you get the picture- and have probably been there too) when something happens in my life that is off my ‘plan’ ‘script’ or ‘want’, I now step back and look at it from afar.
Is this really as bad or damaging as I think it is? Or is the Divine designing this for me to become the person it knows I am?
Usually, that person is much bigger than I have believed myself to be…
I then see things the way they are, and move forward from there, as if on a treasure hunt. I believe there is something valuable hidden in what I previously would have called a shit storm.
Seeing the reality of my moments and life has made all the difference.
Not to say that I still don’t go into a bit of all of the above mentioned drama queen modes… but it’s like the fake tantrum of a kid who’s refused a second helping of dessert just before bed. The kid knows it’s wrong to ask, but follows the script of protest anyway. Eventually, the kid falls in line and doesn’t even ask for seconds anymore.
That’s about where I am now.
It takes a lot of hard work to get here. But I don’t like to unnecessarily suffer any more.
Until next time,
#selfloveselfcarefirst #The Divine #Surrender #Long game #self love #stop suffering #acceptance
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