My book of poetry, "Stripping- My fight to find Me" is a story of the triumph of the human spirit. It is a story of our deep need for connection and the infinite power of love to heal.

I am energy. I am infinity. But I am also a poet, author, artist. wife, mother, sleep doctor, and attachment and complex childhood trauma survivor. I healed only when I understood I was broken, not a victim. I learnt that everything I needed was within me. And that my inner life was the essence and driving force of my existence.

Where did Self Love Self Care First® come from?

I needed to find meaning in my suffering so I kept thinking, “What truth did I come out of this journey with? How can I share what I know in forms other than what I receive through my poetry? What is the most foundational and fundamental truth about human existence that I discovered to be true in my suffering? That is where SLSCF® comes from.

I discovered that if we do not know our truth, we cannot love ourselves. The pain and suffering of our lives, the false external messages about life, success and achievement that we receive, and the projections and imposed expectations of others we are subjected to, mangle our truth, distract us from our destined path, and cut deep into our body, mind, and soul. They cause us to not pay attention to ourselves, and to how we live our lives. These feelings and beliefs descend into our unconscious and become habitual patterns that hijack our lives.

SelfLoveSelfCareFirst® is the journey of truthful self-examination and acceptance of our truth. Only when we are ready to find value, love, and compassion for our true selves do we begin to live free.

This blog is a celebration of love, stillness, growth, joy, discovery, and the truth. The conversation is honest, the topics are varied, the perspectives are from many angles, but the common thread weaving the discussions together is Self Love Self Care First®.

You are not moving towards any light. There is no light out there. It is inside you. You must move inwards- not outwards to look for it. No one can guide you there. Only you can give yourself the permission to embark on this journey. Only you can reclaim yourself.

Your freedom is in your hands.


Monday, June 14, 2021

'The Radiance That Lies in My Dispossession'- Carl Gustav Jung and My Muse- My Unconscious.



It's Sunita here.

Carl Gustav Jung, (born July 26, 1875, Kesswil, Switzerland—died June 6, 1961, K├╝snacht), Swiss psychologist and psychiatrist who founded analytic psychology famously stated,

Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.

My recovery from attachment and childhood trauma involved access to the history of my trauma buried deep in my unconscious. It was Davanloo's Intensive Short Term Dynamic Psychotherapy that helped me gain this access, and heal from the effects of my trauma. 

In the uncovering of my unconscious, I also got reconnected to my creative self. As I continually unmask the drive and motivations of my unconscious, I get more and more connected to my mystic muse in the universe. That is how I 'receive' my poetry. I am very slowly starting to comprehend the creative process by which I write my poetry. 

Today, I would like to share this poem with you. It is from my recently started 5th collection called, "The Radiance That Lies in My Dispossession'. The title came to me in a dream vision, and I feel it to be prophetic and a promise of the discoveries to come in the poems that will emerge.

 'Laden Sky" is #5 in the collection. The picture above is from the spot where I sat by my muse, a lake, as these emotions and words came to me. They were accompanied by an intense feeling of being connected to someone who was in pain. I don't know who that was. But I trust my feelings and intuition enough now to confidently know there was someone reaching out to me. 

This poem is for you. This poem is actually for all of us. We are all connected. Always. In our struggles. In our pain. In our joys. And in our triumphs.


Do you ever feel the sky dipping down to weep with you in remembrance of all your sorrows and heartache?

I do.

Especially when it is pregnant with celestial moisture.

That is when I am embraced by its cool and wet arms, as my tears lie unshed just beneath my lashes.

Sometimes when I have nothing obvious to be sad about, but am surrounded by silent, grief stricken whispers.

I wonder who is sighing.

I can feel you.

I am sending you much love.

The sky will comfort us both.

Sunita Merriman
June 11, 2021
5:30 pm

Until next time,

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